Glass Castle

I sit upon a dazzling throne, will be made into command, hidden behind holy writ and vanity like fire, I wished for it to end, and end it did, every man, every beast, every stroke of paint in this picture, in oblivious states we saw ourselves as invincible castles, but in reality we were only pretty and fragile like glass houses.

Who would have thought that the magic of distraction would seem so, wrenching in the end, we built up our walls, we denied access, we held.

We survived until that very moment, that moment where our layers shifted into transparency, our thoughts rendered into meaning, we became naked in a room filled with fire.

It is obvious really, we are humans after all, we stand defenseless before the charms of ambition, we want to strive for something, we want to grow out of ourselves, we want to crush that barrier, that one inch, that inch of freedom that we all have and share, but never truly know the value of.

That one inch, that inch of stained glass.

Do you know the feeling?

I watched this vid recently, I was chocked how good it was, it’s just so relatable y’know <3

 

Back up again~

First of all I want to apologize for not posting anything these past few months, I’ve just been lazy y’know c;

Anyway~ From now on I’ll try and post whenever I can

Love~

In a world were your life isn’t governed by despair..

Were dreams aren’t distant illusions.

Were a warm soft embrace is actually worth something.

In a world were love and peace comes before dread and anger.

Were a special bond brings us closer, makes us stronger.

A special world for you and me.

Cry and hope.

Love and see.

Enjoy and live.

Just see.

We’ll be.

Snow~

There is something about that first cover of feathery white, that very first cold flake of winter on your tongue.

I love snow <3

Dreaming about you <3

I had a dream today, it felt so real, so right. But then i woke up with the fright that none of it was right, the pictures i saw was nothing but dreams, i hate to say it, but i know what it means.. </3

I had this dream about you, It was so magical and vivid, so much so that I woke up all emotional and happy.

I felt like the happiest man alive, but then, Like I said, It was only a dream T__T

 

To the future <3

 

Paper Walls – Yellowcard

God, I love this song <3

 

[Kids singing:]
Let’s burn a hole, so we can climb out.
Of these paper walls, and this empty house.
Don’t listen too close, they’re words are like guns.
With bullets that fly and kill what you’ve won..

Let’s burn a hole, so we can climb out.
Of these paper walls, and this empty house.

We’re the only thing that’s real.

These visions we have of ten years ago,
Of stars in the sky and us down below.
In streets and east coast lines,
We kept this scene alive.

Here I am, still hold on to this,
Dream we had, won’t let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone..

Don’t listen too close, they’re words are like guns.
With bullets that fly and kill what you’ve won.
Some love to hate, and some tell you lies.
So lets make a toast, and kiss them goodbye..

We’ll kiss them all goodbye..

Here I am, still hold on to this,
Dream we had, won’t let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone..

Here I stand, won’t turn back again.
Won’t leave you, know how hard it’s been
Hear me now, you will never be alone..

Let’s take what hurts, and write it all down.
On these paper walls, and this empty house.
And when our ink runs out, we’ll burn it to the ground..

Here I am, still hold on to this
Dream we had, won’t let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone..

Here I stand, won’t turn back again.
Won’t leave you, know how hard it’s been
Hear me now, you will never be alone..

Yeah..

Izzy~ <3

I’m sitting here and thinking about my favorite girl. <3

“A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they’ve got planes and trains and cars
I’d walk to you if I had no other way” <3

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Memories.

I can smell her on every page.
I hold onto this book, it’s a paperback with a broken spine, I hold it close to my heart, second for second.

I’ve drawn little hearts on the pages I like, the chapter in which I started to know you, I’ve underlined your name with a happy smile, beaming ear to ear.

In the back of this book of life, I signed with my name, while drawing pictures of unicorns and elves happily dancing under the rainbow.

From page to page I like to fondle with the corners, fold the paper into funny looking curls, and then folding them back again, or just leave them like they are.

Sometimes I like to leave the book open in the wind, sometimes the wind will take some of the pages and turn them at its own will, then I’ll just as quickly as the wind grab it back and read the page that is left open, cherish the moment depictured at the page.

I close my eyes, remembering what had passed, wondering if it will last.

The cover of the book is green, serene like it’s depicting a scene.

Fields of softest green, I lay feeling the dream, I open the book again, page down and page up again, and then I close my eyes again, using the book as a tent, covering my eyes from the sun.

At night I sit by my desk, reminiscing about what have been and what’s to come.
To bed now, In the dark, I lay with a tinted smile, stroking the cover of my book, rugged and flawed, I can feel the pulse of life, I read the title, written in cold gold, “Memories”..

Like a lullaby it sings to me..
“Dream, Dream and become all you can be..”
“Like we are, you shall become..”
“When all hope is gone, remember no not what is wrong..”
“Remember the dream, remember me..”
“When in doubt, just open the book, feel the warm embrace of memories”

Lullaby.

I still have the memories at least..

War~

War within, war thick and thin, war from places dim, you die when I pull this pin..
War with pen or sword, what’s the difference I still feel remorse of course..
War never changes, still lingering in our minds, memories of those who gave their lives..
War is always raging, be it men with armor or suits they still fight where you cannot dispute..
War, fighting our fears, but just more eyes filled with tears..